Sweet Surprises on a Dark Day

 

I published the last post of the week this morning or so I thought. A few things have happened since then that I feel I need to post for keeping these memories fresh throughout our time. 

Today is our sixth month wedding anniversary, and right on cue, my sweet man came through the door with some sweet surprises. 

Even while he's sick, my loving husband made it to the store to bring home a bouquet of flowers to remind me of the anniversary date we exchanged vows. This ladies, this is why I love this special man beyond belief. 

I am loving this gorgeous mixture of flowers and leaves, plus two sprigs of evergreen added to finish off the Christmas look. 

I know I really go into this in so many posts, but how can I not? The sweet man I married six months ago is so full of love and is so giving that I can't believe it's all real. The entire time we have been together has felt surreal. Each day my heart grows larger and larger, filled with love. Sometimes I feel like it's so full it will burst, but instead, he finds more room to make it grow. My heart is always filled with joy and happiness and an overwhelming amount of love for him and for life in general. It's the most amazing blessing I have ever received. 

Terry Macrae owns my heart. He is gentle with it and holds it in deep reverence. He is my man forever and beyond. I will look for his soul even when I cross over. 

But sweet man didn't end it there. He topped it off with a bag of dark chocolate candy. Candy that I feel safer eating being diabetic thank regular chocolate. I love this man!

Amazing morning overall. Then the damn broke. 

My daughter sent me a screenshot of one of my friends' posts on Facebook. Her daughter had passed away and she had to tell her goodbye. I was shocked and heartbroken. This girl is younger than my two oldest daughters. She was a very young 42 years of age. I won't share any personal info other than that or a picture out of respect. I'm trying to figure out how or why she passed but have not heard anything back yet. 

Her mother and father, two brothers and her all lived across from us while the kids were growing up. The father became a good friend of mine as well. He had ALS or Lou Gehrig's disease and passed from it many years ago. That death really tore my heart up. He was such a kind, good hearted man with a good sense of humor. Upon his passing I went to the hospital and then the home to help her tell her children their father would not be coming home. 

After a couple of hours and finally letting that shock settle a bit, I was told that one of my best friend's father was on hospice and had very little time left. He is an older man and definitely not quite as much of a shock as a 42 year old of course, but still a loss. I used to call the man "dad". I hung out with my friend so much that he was like a father. Another life smackdown for sure. I hate this. 

So as we say goodbye to those in our lives that we love or have feelings for, we struggle with that worry about what happens after death. "Will he or she be okay?" "I'm scared for them" or "It's not time for them to go." We are given life as a blessing and it's up to us to live each day like we mean it. Life is too short for us to not enjoy every breath, every second we have been blessed with. 

This is a beautiful day and yet a dark day. So bittersweet. Filled with another hello in my new relationship and another goodbye to those I have loved in my life. It's a difficult thing to say goodbye and I'm not one for change and that makes it tougher to handle. But that's life, right? Their time on earth has come and gone. Now their journey continues on the other side, hopefully the travel is peaceful and joyful while meeting those on the other side to help them cross. 

Goodbye, sweet Steph and when your time is here, goodbye "dad". May you both cross into the light with no pain, no struggle, and may you be met by those who have gone before you. I'm sure they will greet you with open arms. Good journey to you both. Cross with knowing you were loved and are loved here and may you find peace and comfort there. Until we all meet again, I love you. 

May angels light your way through the rest of your journey home.

Hug your loved ones a bit tighter today.